Thursday June 26

I have taken a brief hiatus from posting - generally not a good sign. I have been floating where I am. Not improving and not worsening. Just stuck.

I am refocusing, however, and have a plan to get back on track. This weekend is prep and Monday June 30 is D-day. More then

Monday June 16

I have been stumbling and it is time to get back on track.

I have updated my Vision for my life, as I need to reclaim my focus. Here it is:

My Vision

× I am lean, healthy and athletic.

× I live my life committed to my on-going health and well being

× I love to exercise, and do so at least 5 hours/week. Weights & intervals are my thing. They give me the body I deserve and make me feel energized and powerful. I can take on anything

× I am considered an athlete by all who know me.

× I have a “fitness competitor” body, envied by girls 30 years my junior

× I am a powerful role model for my children, family & those around me. I will help everyone see how to live their best life, as I enjoy living mine

× I choose to put into my body only those things that optimize my energy and sense of well being. I eat lean, clean and wholesome. "White stuff" and fatty foods have no place!

× I eat mostly raw & whole foods. They make me feel “on my game”

× I will live with a higher purpose. I have sought this all my life. I will make a meaningful & profound difference in the quality of people’s lives

× My long term goal is to work to stamp our obesity in families. To be credible doing that, I will enthusiastically & with passion stamp out my own

I am free of all addictions, compulsions & unhealthy behaviors.

I am proud of how & look & feel, and of my ability to surmount everything that must be achieved.

I am free. I am proud

Monday June 2

Well, the weekend wasn't as good as I had hoped. I had some cravings which I gave into. Darn!

I had been feeling so strong & focused, and the next thing I knew I had licorice in my hands!

It wasn't a total blowout, although I did give back some of the losses I worked so hard to achieve over the past 2 weeks. Double Darn!

Today was good until about 7 p.m., when I found some licorice left from the weekend and decided I should get rid of it (via my mouth!).

The good news is all my meals for tomorrow are already made & packed, and I have an appointment with my trainer at 6:30 a.m. tomorrow.

Onward.